Day 3, Friday: Things that make you uncomfortable
This topic makes me uncomfortable :)
I could have a never ending list of the things that make me uncomfortable. To be honest, that is almost my default answer when explaining some of my behaviors, ..."because it make me uncomfortable..." Is something I say often.
- Truth be told, I have social anxiety... maybe that is why I love blogging so much :) I can say things on my mind, share my thoughts, feelings, and my heart - and not fear the reaction I might see on someone's face. I can perform very well in social settings, actually, from a professional standpoint I would say it is one of my stronger qualities, I can really excel interacting with people - little do they know I am sweating through my shirt. The stress and anxiety I feel leading up to those moments, and after the encounter has passed, I over think everything. What I said, how I acted, what did they think, did I say to much or too little, did I react too much or too little,... Did they like me, Will they like their pictures,....???? I call this my social anxiety, or maybe it is just me being a girl. Who knows.
- Confrontation - who really likes it? I actually do really well making my points, and holding my ground... which, to fault my stubbornness, could also be the problem. In the heat of a discussion, especially something I am passionate about, I have difficulty keeping an open mind and I get shaky in my statements, but stay firm on my convictions. I have come a long way with age and experience to understand that two people don't have to agree. Understanding that point is often difficult, for myself. I have grown to be able to say, "I can see where you are coming from" or "I respect your opinion". But, I want that same curtousy - which is not always reciprocated. And then I obsess about it (see #1 above... and then sometimes #3 below).
- Holding grudges. Being too stubborn to forgive and let go. Those feelings are so conflicted. People that have the ability to do this I really respect. It is on my list of things to do.... A few sessions with my Priest should help...
- Last but not least, snakes, scorpions, and spiders .... and other little creatures that could kill you when you don't even see them coming!! I live in the Midwest so I seriously doubt I have to worry about that much here... but, if I enter high grass, I automatically assume something is going to bite me and I will die.
maybe I just need meds! ;)
on my way to the Mommy & Me mini's - I send John pictures still... He likes it :)